Here is what I learned in September. My story is my story. If I cry every time I tell it, do I still hold on to past hurts, regrets and anger? I have asked myself this and I say no. I am a human being allowed to feel. It’s what you do with that emotion. How does it fuel you? Does it motivate you to do better? I have to get over where I was in my fitness 3 years ago and create a new level going forward. My kids aren’t who they used to be and neither am I, so let me focus on who they are now and where I have the opportunity to make better memories with them. There’s a new relationship ahead. I am no longer negatively guarded. On to the next chapter!
Here is the second AHA! moment. When I was 19 years old a missionary had visited our church. I was teaching Sunday school and after service walked into the sanctuary as everyone was talking. The missionary walked up to me and said, I don’t know your name or what you do here, but the Lord has a word for you. God is going to call you to be a mother to many women. I don’t know how or where? What he didn’t know was that a passion was stirring in my heart to work with young girls and women. I ran from Gods call for so many years. The passion has never left my heart. Today at 50 I am following Gods call. The pastor at Summit Church said “God’s call on your life is irrevocable”. I will never forget that.
So what’s next? CHICKTIME!!! Before we left for the Chicktime retreat we got to enjoy our time with the girls at Milestone House. The girls were given decorated boxes and wrote notes to each other saying what they thought was special about each other. I was blessed by how they were so open and articulate in their written comments. I believe we are making a difference and they are being blessed as we are too each month. I have a new volunteer that has committed to joining me each month. My friend Cindy led this activity and she did great! Here are a few pics from that event.